“You don’t have to stare at him,” I whispered.
He glanced over. “I keep thinking he’ll stop breathing if nobody’s watching.”
“Welcome to parenthood.”
He gave me a tired half-smile, and for one brief, disorienting second we were ourselves again — the version of us from before any of this. Then the hospital came back into my head. The phone call. His empty chair beside me. The smile disappeared.
My father had booked a hotel two blocks over rather than staying with us, but he showed up every morning with groceries and every evening with dinner, and he never once criticized Grant out loud. Somehow that made Grant more uncomfortable than any criticism could have.
One afternoon I found the two of them alone in the kitchen. My father was slicing pears. Grant was standing by the sink like he was waiting to be sentenced.
“You can say it,” Grant told him.