No one said anything for a moment.
“I don’t expect forgiveness today,” she added.
I believed her — maybe because she hadn’t asked for it.
“I appreciate you saying that,” I said.
After she left, Grant stood beside Micah’s bassinet for a long time.
“Do you forgive her?” he asked.
“I don’t know.”
“Do you forgive me?”
I looked at him. “I don’t know.”
He nodded. The answer hurt him. But he accepted it, and something between us had changed. Not healed. Changed.
PART 8
For the next several weeks, Grant stayed in the guest room. Not as punishment. Because closeness, I’d decided, needed to become something we chose again, not something we defaulted back into out of convenience.
We started marriage counseling. At our first session, the counselor asked why we wanted to save the marriage at all.
Grant answered first. “Because I love my wife.”