Two days later, he brought the whole thing up himself in counseling, unprompted. That mattered too.
Another time, I got invited to join the advisory board of one of my father’s foundations. I waited almost a week to tell Grant, because some part of me was afraid he’d think I was drifting back toward the Ashworth world I’d worked so hard to leave. When I finally told him, he looked hurt.
“You thought I’d judge you for that?”
“A little.”
He sat with it for a moment. “I guess we both still have work to do.”
“Yes.”
It was almost comforting, realizing that getting better didn’t mean getting perfect. It just meant noticing sooner. Repairing faster. Choosing differently the next time, instead of the same way again.
By Micah’s first birthday, Grant had moved back into our bedroom. There was no ceremony to it. One evening, after counseling, we came home and talked for almost an hour, and finally I said, “You could bring your things back, if you want.”