Eventually I said, “She used my pregnancy as a reason to keep financial information away from me.”
“Yes.”
“I want to be angry.”
“You are.”
“I mean properly angry.”
He tilted his head. “Throwing cushions?”
“Possibly.”
“We can buy more cushions.”
I laughed. And then, without meaning to, I cried — not for any one reason, but because I was suddenly, fully tired of discovering how many people had made decisions around me because they’d each decided, on their own, that hiding the truth was kinder than telling it.
Grant hid the guarantee to protect me. Colette redirected the mail to protect me. I hid my own father to protect the ordinary life Grant and I were trying to build. We had all protected each other so aggressively, in so many overlapping directions, that somewhere along the way trust had simply run out of room.
My father sat beside me and put an arm around my shoulders. “Your mother used to say secrets charge interest.”