“Hey,” he whispered.
It was so tender it actually hurt to watch, because there — for exactly one second — was the man I had expected to walk into that delivery room. The same man who’d spent an entire Sunday reassembling a crib twice because one rail sat a half-inch crooked. The same man who used to press his ear to my stomach at night and laugh out loud every time our son kicked.
People are rarely only one thing. That’s what made this so much harder than if he had simply been cruel every day of our marriage. If he had, leaving would have been simple arithmetic. But he hadn’t been cruel. He’d been funny and attentive and ambitious and, underneath all of it, hungry — starving, really — for one woman’s approval. Too willing to shrink himself down to whatever size his mother’s expectations required. And at the single most important moment of our marriage, that hunger had cost us both.