It was difficult to explain because Russell was surrounded by people.
He had employees.
Business associates.
Friends.
Children.
People who wanted his attention and, sometimes, clearly wanted something from him.
Yet beneath all of that was a quiet sadness.
I noticed it before I understood it.
## The Night We Met
We met at a charity dinner.
I wasn’t there as a guest.
I was serving champagne.
I remember standing near one of the tables, balancing a tray in one hand while trying not to think about how badly my feet hurt.
I had been working since early afternoon.
My shoes were too tight, and my smile was becoming harder to maintain with every passing hour.
Russell approached me.
He didn’t immediately ask for a drink.
Instead, he looked at me and asked, “What’s your name?”
I told him.
Then he asked something that surprised me.
“Do your feet hurt?”
I laughed because I thought he was joking.
“No more than usual.”
He smiled.